hey hey! very long never blog already.

i just kinda think that i cannot blog for nuts. LOL!

besides.... as though no one reads it... so yar....

LOLx....

I kinda feel good today, but a bit tarnished by my brother's comment.

I slept at 8 in the morning and forced myself to go see my results at noon. Pretty scared then, because my papers weren't well done, except macroecons. I expected it to get around B.... but... sigh. But one of the subject, which i never go to his classes, got B worh... and i thought i gonna get C or something. Kinda happy about it. Well, at least i pass. Hehe

Then i went back to sleep... till 4... i guess.
And then i went to spend my time on my own, watch shows and other stuff. Then went to help my parents.

Today dunno why... like having waves and waves of people coming in. Don't know when and where these people come from. Good thing, God has His own timing. We do finish one thing, another group then come. At least we get to rest. Hehe.

After that, we went to Malaysia to have supper... for me, its dinner. Well, it is then that my brother commented that his girlfriend is more useful than me in the durian stall. Wells, i feel i really have no use in the stall. But i feel that she is even more no use than me....
Good thing that I am not going to be the one who is gonna to take over the business. As long its them, i think this statement will only be available when i recognise her as one who is more capable than me. Afterall, these past 18 years I have been nagged by my parents to help them. Whereas, she is too protective by my bro to let me recognise her as one.

if she really after her work and come down to work for my parents, i think she pretty much deserve what my mother is gonna give her. As well as, if she is really gonna work for my parents, i 'bu ke qi', ask her do the jobs she ought to do.

I seriously think that our relationship is turning sour because of some external factors. i'm pretty worried that if one day when we are old, our relationship is cold and 'not a family anymore'... sigh...

God, I pray you help in our decisions in our lives to lead towards You. Amen :D

I was thinking of whether to take up what course at what school.
Together with that, I was thinking of whether to study overseas.

I guess my answer to whether I want to study overseas is NO.
And why so?

I think one obvious thing is about my parents. They have already slogged 6 years of their life to support my sister in her studies in Australia. Plus, they have to cough out their blood to work extra harder during the 6 years she was there. Not only so, they are taking out all their savings for it. Every year at least 50,000 bucks... not a small number.
I guess, an exchange program would be a better option to cover the 'studying overseas' option.

Secondly, even though I think I can leave my family and go study overseas, maybe get a foreign boyfriend, and maybe marry there, I don't think I can leave church easily.
Afterall, I want to serve in church more than I want to study. However, this results to whether God wants me to serve in church or elsewhere. And it is a subject to when and how as well.
God always have his plan behind all my plans. No matter what I want that doesn't parallel with what He wants, He would strike it all off. Just like then, that I want to go Australia.
When I had everything prepared, and just waiting to finish exams, and just go, God suddenly pops up problems with me and the guardian.
No matter what, God also opened options for me - private schools. So now I am following the route of private schools because I cannot go to public universities in Singapore!

And another reason is because, if I can study in Singapore, what for I go study overseas? It's gonna be a waste of money and time. If private school can provide me a good certification and a fast route, what for I need to spend double the time and triple the amount to go? LOL.

What is your opinion of friendship?
To me, friendship is something so precious that I really appreciate, especially those that I have ran together with them.

One of this group would be my npcc friends, those who are friends with me for about 6 years now. These are the people who knows me, yet, not all about me.
For an instance, there's one who actually mistakenly thinks that I am siding another friend in their conflict. But the rest of us all can clearly see. There is a chinese idiom, 'Those who are in the situation can only see things that are happening now. But those who are outside of the situation can see the whole issue of what is going on.'
Just like, you are watching a track and field competition. If you are running a course, you can only see what is in front of you, and have to really concentrate on what is in front of you. On the contrary, if you are a spectator, you can see the whole stadium, and see who is the first to who is the last in the race.
I guess, this is something that we must all understand.
If two are in conflict, please do not also judge those who are outside of the conflict. Even you think that we are siding the person, let not your heart turn cold towards us. We are not siding. If it is one, maybe... yes. But look, it's the whole group. Obviously the situation shows clearly.

No matter what, we all wish that you guys can really patch up. As well as, the rest of us wants you to continue to be friends with us.

I guess its been so long since i blogged.

Some updates:

1) I just finished my diploma, so now i am waiting for my certificate so that i can apply somewhere else.

2) I cannot tell you what route i have decided coz i have not decide on anything... thats bad.

3) I got re-affirmed in March, Easter '08. This is one big decision that i've made and its correct. LOL.

4) I am now, still a big fat pig and have not saved any cash in my bank, because i have been a big spender and have problems with the banks i am with. How irritating.

And i guess.... that's all for now. :D

Hello. Its coming to the end second month of they year 2008.
I feel that i have not accomplished anything that i wanted. *SLAP SLAP*

Things didn't start out well this year. So many unhappy things have happened. But looking at the brighter side of life, you can say that, at least everyday you wake up, you can see the sky. Every minute you breathe in, is air and not acid.

My friend Tammy is back from Sydney. Finally we get to meet after.... around 5 years.
We talked quite a number of times over the net, chat a number of times over the phone, seen each other on pictures.
Finally one day in january, she told me that she's gonna come back to singapore in december.
But, she came back yesterday, not december. She came back for the funeral of her grandmother.

Not a happy event to see each other. But, i believe, that it is time that we show what is the Bethany family spirit. A lot of us decided that we go to the vigil service to support her. No matter in tears or smiles, all of us are willing to give her our hugs and tissues. Haha. Maybe for me, is my tee shirt, because i don't bring tissues all around.

Its time that, we, as a batch, go testify of our faith to our fellow batch-mate.

Friends, it's indeed time to show our love and regard for God.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Well, haven't been posting, i am sure that many of you have been wondering where have i been. LOL.
What can i say then? I can only say that God have been preserving my life and made my life fruitful. Especially at this period of time. In youth conference. Hehe.
In camp, i learn this new song name 'in every day that dawns'. And this sentence, 'as my life unfolds, you are revealing the wisdom of Your sovereign plan' becomes very close to my heart. Why so?
I remember at the beginning of the year i wanted to walk in my own ways, wanting to pursue my own dreams. But God said something and slap my face with it. Not literally slapping. But just have me a wake up call. He said, 'My ways are not your ways.' and He really made sure i cannot go aust. Sounds nasty isn't it? But now everything seems clear. He wants me to stay because of a greater plan here. What is the greater plan that i am talking about? It is to be His servant. And nothing is greater than that.
What is my resolution for the new year? Mind you. This is the first resolution i ever make. So bear with me. Lets just make 10.
1) to study the Lord's Word in a deeper level, and stressing myself to go to the extent to learn more.
2) to get higher grades for studies, for the sake of glorifying the Lord's name.
3) since i want to glorify Lord, i should lose weight. Say, 10 kg by june . This is also because i want to take care of the body of temple that God gave to me.
4) to love the Lord's house even more, and to clean up every week as i can.
5) to go for all the church meetings, classes, and sessions, as much as i can.
6) to save at least quater of my allowance to my savings. And NOT spending it.
7) to listen more and talk less.
8) to share my faith to at least 1 person. I never try before. Lol.
9) to study the Lord's Word at least 5 times a week, excluding all church activities, meeting, sessions, and classes.
10) and finally, to learn to be a prayerful servant with the skills of praying the correct way.
Ok. This is just for now. I may have more to come!
Take care!

hello people.i haven been blogging.

but today, i am going to share with you funny pictures i saw at engrish.com.

real funny.

you would really want to be catious about dropping down.
i am sorry to argue with you sir, but how can i buy a used tissue?!
so, do i go in or not?
you sure you want to go in to this shop? you might get beaten up by the 'hitman'.

this place sucks. lets go somewhere else.


hey. dont abuse the plastic bags. wait. how do you do that?!

try getting a bucket of water.

aim well guys.

yeah! beware of safety. lets be dangerous!

unfairness in the world is so real. have you gone through one?

yesterday's class, my lecturer told me how unfair the world can be.
If you go for an interview, you would want to go and dress nicely so that you can present yourself well. If it is mostly americans, then you would want to dress more american-ish. If it is more english, then you would want to dress more english like. you wouldn't want to dress to formal becoz it would probably shows that you are proud. and at the same time, you wouldn't want to dress so humbly that it would downgrade your status.

well... today i experienced a glipse of unfairness. The one who told me about unfairness, is the one who showed me unfairness. And that is my lecturer.

My team did a project. When we got back our reply forms, we are so happy that we got an A. How great that is. An A! But we couldn't read her feedbacks. So, after class we went to ask her. Guess what, after she read, she hold both my other two team-mates hands and ask them wether they put in a lot of effort. I was like... what am i? Am i invicible?
Then she carry on, congratulating them and tell them they should continue in marketing and stuff like that. My bro and i was like... us?
YEAH!!! I know! we got an A! SO WHAT?! where's my glory?
don't sound as if i didn't do my work. don't sound as if i never put in my effort. I DID!!!
What am i? Some weirdos who got recruited to a team and just be there to drink tea and let the others do the job?

To this lecturer, i am really happy to have you as my marketing lecturer. Really happy. You have a great personality. You are a very interesting person. And i really like that about you. However, this was the fall of it. The dissapointment of everything. I hope not to hear sorries and apologies, but i want you to know, I DID MY WORK!!! MY BROTHER DID HIS WORK!!! THILINA DID HIS WORK TOO!!! We all did our work. And i really hope that the glory can be equally given to everyone.

Maybe, this is another testing from the Lord. To tell me that the world is so unfair. Yes LC, you've got what you want. You've taught the most ultimate lesson ever. UNFAIRNESS.