what do you say if i am not going to aussie anymore?
go also good. dun go also good.
go i happy, able to study things that i can dun study here.
dun go also happy, able to help out in np and wish to get silver la....
think so much.... ya, mummy say also correct, its not the right time lorh.
sigh... now at this time where to find the courses that i like?! private sch also dun have, poly also dun have. aiya... i also dun really know what i want also.
sigh... i also happy with what GOD gives la. dun complain le lorh...

aiya... so happi!!!! i am officially 16 le! wohoo. not today la. it was past few days. 22nd oct.
i was so happy. it was one of my best nights, best day i ever had.
when i was young, i can say i dun have friends, no childhood. the onli happy times was when i was with my parents when we go to malaysia. also that time they celebrate my birthday. i can remember.
when i am older, have friends la.... but my family didn care much bah. never celebrate my birthday ever. there was once, it was my birthday but none say happy birthday. i was quiet myself. but then there was once i got slapped. aiya.... but nvm le la.
i was so happi on sunday, big one small one all come. so happy. hehe.
aiya... so happy until my lips cannot be together le la.....

its a few more days to 16. :)

recently my eye taps are on again. not memories, but problems.

i got an offer for foundation and a 4 week bridging. that means my sch starts on the 3rd of jan. and i most probably cannot stay long till 31 dec. lol. and my parents were discussing about the course and they dun believe in me. nvm lorh. they call the agent and clear their doubts. and then let me go. recently they keep saying and saying and saying about things. taps turn on again. sigh.

nvm la.... i also dun care le. can go can le.
i just think that there is so many reasons for me to go. eventhough i know its hard and rocky, but i still want to go.
sigh.....

anyway, tmr is science prac for O. i kinda study bah. if i compare how much i study and how much my friends study, i think its just one-third of what they are studying.

aiya.... but its ok le lorh. die le lorh. nvm lorh. i think i am back to my relax state again for dunno what heck reasons.

singapore has lost its sky!!!
so smelly! the air is polluted with a PSI over 100.

let me elaborate to show you my sadnehirdlyss.

at mindnight, the PSI was skyrocketing! it was about 140. but because of the morning dew, the condensation, its PSI dropped.
at about 7 a.m., the PSI was lower than 140. it was recorded 126.
at 10 a.m., the PSI increased. it was recorded 130.
at noon, the PSI was recorded 128, decreases by 2.
at around 1 p.m., the PSI is around 105.
at about 2 p.m., the PSI had dropped to 91.
and now, at 8, the PSI was recorded 143.
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The latest satellite pictures showed there were 506 hotspots and thick smoke haze in Sumatra, mainly in Riau, Jambi and South Sumatra, and winds blowing in a southerly to southwesterly direction had brought smoke haze from southern Sumatra to Singapore.

NEA added that the prevailing winds are also transporting the smoke haze towards the Malacca Straits and Peninsular Malaysia. "The prevailing winds are transporting the smoke haze towards the Malacca Straits, Peninsular Malaysia and Singapore," the agency said.

The Malaysian capital Kuala Lumpur on Friday also reported unhealthy air levels, while flights were disrupted in the country's Sarawak province on Borneo island.

A spokesman for Singapore's Changi Airport on Saturday said the haze had not affected operations at the regional aviation hub.

Hundreds of firefighters in Indonesian Borneo, aided by police and volunteers, were Friday dousing illegal forest fires causing acrid haze that blanketed western parts of the island, officials in the neighbouring country said.

Indonesia's annual burn-off causes a haze that typically smothers parts of Malaysia, Singapore and Thailand as well as Indonesia itself.

The NEA advises people with existing heart or respiratory ailments to reduce physical exertion and outdoor activity. - CNA

(article extracted from www.channelnewsasia.com.sg>
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now you know why i am so pissed off. i didn even leave the house. but when i sit at the sofa in the living room, the smell of the bad polluted air hast irritated my nose. i have spent most of my time in my room, on my fan to the max to circulate the air in my room.
i am so hungry now. its because of the bad air, and my reluctance to leave the house. its just so smelly now that even i couldn leave my room. soon, i would be dying of suffocation.
the air is now so polluted that even i want to do my part. by using less electricity consumptions. like i would use the fan instead of the aircon. i would watch a smaller tv than my usual tv in the living room. and the worst of all, i think i am in a suana. why? because i shut all doors and windows. its all because of the bad air and the smoky smell. the higher u are the smellier it is. and i live in the 11th floor! help!
anyway, i think i would buy food and ask them deliver. or i going to cook noodles.
so smelly now! and the PSI at 9 p.m. is 150. its bad!

yesterday was my mum's birthday.
yesterday was my sister's second graduation - for education
yesterday my mum bought a new 400 D camera.

i bet my mum had a great birthday this year.
she paid for more than about 20K for this birthday present. the camera, the cert paper.
what can i say, i love her, more than i could imagine.

today my parents went to mymmar with pastor. the whole time i was praying hard for them.
their safety. mymmar is very very risky now.... all the political troubles and blah blah blah. its so unsafe. and also for those around them, be safe. like for uncle kim teck's father and also my god great grand mother.

i think, reflection is a great thing. because this is when i realise how much i love them, how much i love the people around me. and i should care for them even more now than later when i am or either they are gone. i guess, this is how much God can do to me, to love people. and maybe i should work towards that. hehe. i am thinking of doing smth to it. lol. i will write down my plans when time is near. hehe. :)

oh my gosh!!!!
do u know now i am indulging into starburst?! my sis post it back from aust. we juz got it yesterday. she opened the box and guess wat? oh my gosh! one side starburst, one side ROC, one side m&m, and one side instant pasta. oh my goodness! dying!
i think i will onli eat those when i am stress, like now, studying.
of course i will not b the one eating it! ><><

erm... this week it was a kinda stress week.
i rushed the first day to get back all my papers. well, by thursday i had all my papers except english. i reap what i sow. i didn study so i deserved to get these grades. but i am shocked to find out that some i can pass when i do not study, so think, if i had worked on it, then i will have got very good grades.
on thursday i had an interview with bob rees from canning college. sigh. it was bad, and not the one that i want to hear.
then after that, i began to asked questions to myself. like, what so i want to study? what do i want my future to be? what career do i want? what school would i like to go? where do i want to go?
all these questions keep popping up. and summore i got pms, so i'm very down now. adding on, with these stress, i get more down. so i am like... sian arh.
anyway, i juz made the decision to go curtin le. sigh. long story le larh.
when i buy my ticket i will state down when i am flying. :>