Day 1 (Singapore to Beijing)

oh well, the first day is just simply taking a 7 plus hrs of flight to beijing. i reached there about... 2330?! and when we loaded all the things and got to the bus and into our hotel rooms, it was 0030. oh man! thats how big beijing is!!!
i sat at the front sit of the cabin. which is super comfortable, very spacious leg room.... however, i can't play games and do much becoz of the system they had. and by the way, its my first time to support my own airline, SQ!!! it was rather pleasant to have to sit SQ.
The flying was, ichiban!!! aiyoyo!!! when i take off, i dunno i take off. when i touched down, i also dunno. it was just a jerk there and then nth else. that was how good la! SQ pilots are real good. hello?! what u expect from the all no.1 airline and airport la?! we are talking about singapore eh.
the tour guide is xiao li. anyway, its not his name. its just his surname and made easy for everyone to call him that, and more easier to remember. so if u are lost in beijing, shout xiao li, and i think at least 1 out of 10 ppl there will turn to you and ask who u are calling. lol.
when i reached the hotel, we were very very very very very ungry. guess what we did?! right!!! supper! and we walked down this super dark street together to go for a supper. we had mutton steam boat together with fried rice and also handmade noodles. it was... sedap!!! we asked for small portions becoz it was supper. and we were being cheated. when we say small, it is huge to us. and this huge means small to them. if u are thinking of finishing that plate of fried rice yourself, better think twice. becoz it is really huge. you can share with another person la. or maybe two other person too. lol.
after that, we had to go back becoz we have to wake up super duper early for a new day....
more to come! check it out soon. :)

hey!!!
i going home very very very soon..... haha.... in a few hrs time!!!
wahahahahaha.....
finally!!! home sweet home!!! i miss my bed...
-_-!!!
anyway, tmr i will go to yc at church. then the real home sweet home only comes on friday afternoon. haha.
today is super tiring. sleep so little and go out so early. (just becoz they scared they no time to shop and no time to come back and pack.) and it was soooooo nice. why is it nice??? watch out for day 11 of the blog that i will put up. haha.....
i will type some stuff during yc and update after yc for u people to see. :)
riggghhhtt... cut the crap now.
anyway, the next time i come to china.... NO SHANGHAI!!! aiyo... tiring, busy, and eww.... i will write it during yc.
next time.... cultural trip. more suitable for me. like go back to beijing, go xi'an, go yunnan, go mongolia, go harbin... and many many more. cultural trip better...
ok.... better go pack...
ciaoz.....
:)

hello!!!
i am right in china now.... in hangzhou.
anyone miss me?! -bleh-
hehe......

anyway, i am busy rushing now so others can use the com in an hr. it only cost 2 yuan for an hr. cheapo....
but its better to have to use than not to use.

i am super happy to come. at least, its a big big privillege.
tee.... when u go to beijing, rmb to bring more clothes...thinck clothes! becoz, when i left beijing, the range of temperature goes negative le. everyone was 'smoking'. haha
but it is much more warmer now, becoz i am downwards. way way downwards. and the range now in hangzhou its still at the range of positive. i can wear without my jacket/sweater and go out. rather cooling. 24 hr aircon. tee, if u can see snow, take lots of it. i didn get to see. sigh....

i will rmb to update my blog and post all the funny things....
and hello.... 12 days eh. how to get all in one night?! hehe..... i will do smth about it!

and happy birthday xiang, bert, yun, kevin.
welcome back chest. and bye to you becoz u going to 'prison'. wahahaha....
next time i see u is christmas gathering.

hope all those going to the gathering tmr will be fun... :)

ciaoz babes and hunks....

p.s. moi lurbz u worhz.... (wahahhahahahaha :) )

tmr i will be going to the arts biennale.
and then i will be taking pictures and look at those wonderful arts.
well, i shall post the pictures in the picture blog as a start.
soon, when i am more free, after Os, then i will post some of the pictures i have last time.
e.g. NPCC, church, outside, home.... blah blah blah.
haha.... i think it would be fun de....

the picture blog is up!!!

do visit the blog @ http://memopast.blogspot.com

another new day, another day closer to the end of the O levels!!!
wohoo!!!
this week is the starting of my O papers.
monday was math paper 1 and ss
tuesday was science chem papers 3
wednesday was english and science physics paper 2
thursday have no papers.
today have english paper.

for the past papers, it was terrible!!!
is either cannot finish if not is a lot dunno how to do.
all the papers this week are killer papers. terrible!!!
this is really terrible. except math today.
it is the most satisfying paper this whole week. i managed to finish the paper!!! but there are still quite a few questions i dunno how to do.... the question about angle of elevation and depression.
but i do think that it was quite manageable. and i am quite happy with that.

what do you say if i am not going to aussie anymore?
go also good. dun go also good.
go i happy, able to study things that i can dun study here.
dun go also happy, able to help out in np and wish to get silver la....
think so much.... ya, mummy say also correct, its not the right time lorh.
sigh... now at this time where to find the courses that i like?! private sch also dun have, poly also dun have. aiya... i also dun really know what i want also.
sigh... i also happy with what GOD gives la. dun complain le lorh...

aiya... so happi!!!! i am officially 16 le! wohoo. not today la. it was past few days. 22nd oct.
i was so happy. it was one of my best nights, best day i ever had.
when i was young, i can say i dun have friends, no childhood. the onli happy times was when i was with my parents when we go to malaysia. also that time they celebrate my birthday. i can remember.
when i am older, have friends la.... but my family didn care much bah. never celebrate my birthday ever. there was once, it was my birthday but none say happy birthday. i was quiet myself. but then there was once i got slapped. aiya.... but nvm le la.
i was so happi on sunday, big one small one all come. so happy. hehe.
aiya... so happy until my lips cannot be together le la.....

its a few more days to 16. :)

recently my eye taps are on again. not memories, but problems.

i got an offer for foundation and a 4 week bridging. that means my sch starts on the 3rd of jan. and i most probably cannot stay long till 31 dec. lol. and my parents were discussing about the course and they dun believe in me. nvm lorh. they call the agent and clear their doubts. and then let me go. recently they keep saying and saying and saying about things. taps turn on again. sigh.

nvm la.... i also dun care le. can go can le.
i just think that there is so many reasons for me to go. eventhough i know its hard and rocky, but i still want to go.
sigh.....

anyway, tmr is science prac for O. i kinda study bah. if i compare how much i study and how much my friends study, i think its just one-third of what they are studying.

aiya.... but its ok le lorh. die le lorh. nvm lorh. i think i am back to my relax state again for dunno what heck reasons.

singapore has lost its sky!!!
so smelly! the air is polluted with a PSI over 100.

let me elaborate to show you my sadnehirdlyss.

at mindnight, the PSI was skyrocketing! it was about 140. but because of the morning dew, the condensation, its PSI dropped.
at about 7 a.m., the PSI was lower than 140. it was recorded 126.
at 10 a.m., the PSI increased. it was recorded 130.
at noon, the PSI was recorded 128, decreases by 2.
at around 1 p.m., the PSI is around 105.
at about 2 p.m., the PSI had dropped to 91.
and now, at 8, the PSI was recorded 143.
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The latest satellite pictures showed there were 506 hotspots and thick smoke haze in Sumatra, mainly in Riau, Jambi and South Sumatra, and winds blowing in a southerly to southwesterly direction had brought smoke haze from southern Sumatra to Singapore.

NEA added that the prevailing winds are also transporting the smoke haze towards the Malacca Straits and Peninsular Malaysia. "The prevailing winds are transporting the smoke haze towards the Malacca Straits, Peninsular Malaysia and Singapore," the agency said.

The Malaysian capital Kuala Lumpur on Friday also reported unhealthy air levels, while flights were disrupted in the country's Sarawak province on Borneo island.

A spokesman for Singapore's Changi Airport on Saturday said the haze had not affected operations at the regional aviation hub.

Hundreds of firefighters in Indonesian Borneo, aided by police and volunteers, were Friday dousing illegal forest fires causing acrid haze that blanketed western parts of the island, officials in the neighbouring country said.

Indonesia's annual burn-off causes a haze that typically smothers parts of Malaysia, Singapore and Thailand as well as Indonesia itself.

The NEA advises people with existing heart or respiratory ailments to reduce physical exertion and outdoor activity. - CNA

(article extracted from www.channelnewsasia.com.sg>
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now you know why i am so pissed off. i didn even leave the house. but when i sit at the sofa in the living room, the smell of the bad polluted air hast irritated my nose. i have spent most of my time in my room, on my fan to the max to circulate the air in my room.
i am so hungry now. its because of the bad air, and my reluctance to leave the house. its just so smelly now that even i couldn leave my room. soon, i would be dying of suffocation.
the air is now so polluted that even i want to do my part. by using less electricity consumptions. like i would use the fan instead of the aircon. i would watch a smaller tv than my usual tv in the living room. and the worst of all, i think i am in a suana. why? because i shut all doors and windows. its all because of the bad air and the smoky smell. the higher u are the smellier it is. and i live in the 11th floor! help!
anyway, i think i would buy food and ask them deliver. or i going to cook noodles.
so smelly now! and the PSI at 9 p.m. is 150. its bad!

yesterday was my mum's birthday.
yesterday was my sister's second graduation - for education
yesterday my mum bought a new 400 D camera.

i bet my mum had a great birthday this year.
she paid for more than about 20K for this birthday present. the camera, the cert paper.
what can i say, i love her, more than i could imagine.

today my parents went to mymmar with pastor. the whole time i was praying hard for them.
their safety. mymmar is very very risky now.... all the political troubles and blah blah blah. its so unsafe. and also for those around them, be safe. like for uncle kim teck's father and also my god great grand mother.

i think, reflection is a great thing. because this is when i realise how much i love them, how much i love the people around me. and i should care for them even more now than later when i am or either they are gone. i guess, this is how much God can do to me, to love people. and maybe i should work towards that. hehe. i am thinking of doing smth to it. lol. i will write down my plans when time is near. hehe. :)

oh my gosh!!!!
do u know now i am indulging into starburst?! my sis post it back from aust. we juz got it yesterday. she opened the box and guess wat? oh my gosh! one side starburst, one side ROC, one side m&m, and one side instant pasta. oh my goodness! dying!
i think i will onli eat those when i am stress, like now, studying.
of course i will not b the one eating it! ><><

erm... this week it was a kinda stress week.
i rushed the first day to get back all my papers. well, by thursday i had all my papers except english. i reap what i sow. i didn study so i deserved to get these grades. but i am shocked to find out that some i can pass when i do not study, so think, if i had worked on it, then i will have got very good grades.
on thursday i had an interview with bob rees from canning college. sigh. it was bad, and not the one that i want to hear.
then after that, i began to asked questions to myself. like, what so i want to study? what do i want my future to be? what career do i want? what school would i like to go? where do i want to go?
all these questions keep popping up. and summore i got pms, so i'm very down now. adding on, with these stress, i get more down. so i am like... sian arh.
anyway, i juz made the decision to go curtin le. sigh. long story le larh.
when i buy my ticket i will state down when i am flying. :>

oh wells....
my results weren't that great though. but that shows how much i can do without studying and how much i can do if i had study hard....
all the teachers come to me and commented that they are very dissapointed that i didn got up to their standard, and the first thing they guess and got it right, is i never study. all becoz of dnt, which took up so much of my time. and hello... i started studying only on the 1st of sept... and that is crap! just becoz of dnt!!!
but when thursday comes, i hope the rep from canning can see my good points other than my prelim results. i am anxious for tmr... maths paper! lol
oh, and i had a guest in my house. like i first told ya. her name is michelle foong, all the way from perth. she is always bubbly and very talented in music. she must have taken the genes from her mother.
well, my sister is bringing her out to places in singapore. but she's sick, so its kinda sad. she cannot enjoy that much. sigh. i pray that she can get well soon and she can enjoy the rest of her holidays here.
gotta slp before another fire comes.... sigh

now i know why i want to leave
now i can find more than 10 reasons why i want to leave
now i finally see that i no longer can stay
msg me if u want to know.
and my last words,
"i will tear him apart! i will go so that i will not come back. i am the next dragon lady. and i will. because i have fire in me, fire that burns me. and i thought that they were my only chance, love would be with me, but apparently not! i will not stay. my decisions is final. like he say, i am independant. i can go through. and i will make her scare of me. I WILL!!! "

this week.... spring cleaning!!!
not really.... its actually a guest coming to stay and we are like... so-called force to clean up the place.or rather, at least the room she is gonna sleep.
we clean up the room, throw the old bed, wash the place, and my brother make use of the time to restructure his room while cleaning up his room. haha... so did i and my big bro. my mother scolded us for throwing things so..... so..... 'generously'.
the dust!!!! oh my!
i dunno sneezed how many times. and my dad is like so 'allergic' to the dust. that when he comes near to the rooms, he will start sneezing and sneezing and draw out tissues from the tissue box and sneeze into it. my dad is so funny. we dun have a mask... so he took tissue paper cover it over his nose and mouth and use scotchtape to fasten it on his face.... u shld have seen it. its really really funny.
and these few days i have been sleeping around 2, because of the dust in my room, make me unwilling to sleep there.
but yesterday was a havoc. guess what time i sleep. 4.30!!!! in the morning!!!! actually i was suppose to sleep at about 3 plus, after supper with my 2nd bro, sis, and dad.but then some idoit guy came and make a big mess at our trash at the lobby. all our boxes of trash was on the floor. we took sooooooo much time to clean the place and place those trash downstairs. we weren cursing, but we were swearing! swearin that if we noe hu did this, we will slash him to pieces, not practically though. but for i, i will have an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. i will take my chance to do smth. but of coz, i am not that bad. lol. then i came back to bathe and roam around the house.... dying then!
its because we slept super late thats why nobody wake me and my bro up to go to sch. we woke up around 10 and now packing the room. i can't pack my room until my sis move and throw her things. i think we have this sneezing thing all around... the germs..... because everyone is sneezing. imagine, after 6 years in living in this house, and now u are cleaning up?! and u know how thick is the dust. tell me about it..... we are already sneezing like mad here!!! maybe yearly we have to do consistant jobs to clean up our rooms and the house. SO DIRTY!!!

AAhhhhCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... -sorry, can't help-

this is my very first i am so hurt by my family. first time.
i never had this at all. i always look at the very bright side when it comes to my family. but only when it really hurts me, that is when my tears and mood appear.

i clean up so much because of my sis. she came back today. i was so excited to see her. so i clean up whatever that i can, to make it feel home, cosy, that she never had. but it didn turn out well. not my sister side though, but my bro. i found out that male creatures are one that always hurt me. ya... i think it is. yet it is the male creatures who bring me out of my dark times, moody periods.

i clean up. and i told my bro after fetching my sis from the airport, fetch me to church. nvm, late nvm. but then the only words that hurt me was that he say i was acting holy. wow.... ACTING HOLY!!!! even as i type these words i am crying. hello.... CRYING! and there he is, laughing at his joke. hello. you are my bro. u baptised and then u backslided.... alot! and then?! u got a gf. and u dun go! so be it! but i love to go church. i do! and i go sec 4 friday bible study is because P.Mitch teaches really very encouraging words from GOD that could help me go through this period of time, stress. that is why i start to love to go church. i love it. but u say i am ACTING HOLY?!?!?! fine. take it as I AM! but i wanna tell you that I LOVE THE LORD AND I AM WANTING TO BE HOLY, WANTING TO TRUELY BE THE CHILD OF GOD! and adding on, u r my brother. u know me for almost 16 yrs, and YET u dunno me?! u dunno that.... and u say i ACT HOLY!!!

i cry! i cry because i pity you. i cry because u r backsliding. i cry because u have lost the first love. i cry because u have drifted away for GOD. i cry because u said those words. i cried. and cried. because u hurt me, and u hurt GOD too. and because u have laughed at the seriousness of what the words you have said. i cried.

1990s' , this post is for you!!!

i know many problems are rising up, like my weird problem here. but no matter what, we still need to get our good grades, do our things well, to glorify the LORD's name. but, dun be too stress like me till i cry like mad. u all see my tears and i see ur stress. but what can we do? remember, the LORD is always there. and as friends with GOD as our center, we can only help each other by praying, by sharing our emotions, by helping each other with GOD. so no matter how much tears u shed, how much sweat you put, how much blood you bleed, GOD is there for you and will never forsake us, unless we forsake Him first. May the LORD bless you all always.

Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the LORD upholds him with HIS hand. Psalm 37:24

15 batch, this is for you!

hey, studying??? me too. even though i can dun need to study, but i wanna to work with u all too for O. i juz wanna say dun b so stress, dun exert too much, dun fall sick, and dun collapse. we are together as one and will always be there for each other. if one falls all of us will too, like that time where we need the help of everyone to hold each other to squat and stand for like lotsa times. if u fall, all of us will. continue to work hard and we will be in the exam hall together. jia you!!!

continue to encourage each other, thats what friends are for. :)

what can i say..... i can only say now that hey, thanks for reading and understanding me.
i probably could bring these over when i am gone. lol.
afterall, the smiles that all of u have can melt my pain. thats all i want and all i ask. so when i go i hope that u all would smile and send me off, dun cry. coz if u cry, it will want to make me stay even more and slow down my pursue for earthly things.
i really love u all