i see him....
its such a long time i see him.
it seems that i had so many things to say to him, but no.

i thought i could see him, talk to him.
no.

i thought that they would be so happy to hear my call.
but no.

life is so experiential.

tears of sadness, tears of joy
crying, laughter
all come round.
but why do humans have to go through all these?
why do we have to go through all these times?

God gave us the chance to live as humans who have feelings.
but also gave us to satan, to test us, and then to let our faith to be genuine and precious as gold. so that one day we would walk on the streets of gold, live in that big mansion, with no day and night, with that joyous praise and worship everyday, everytime. all these trying times are the testings.