YEAH!!!!!!!!!

i am kinda happy today. because i have been struggling wether i should take the path to go aussie to study. so i asked God to help. Since he open the route for me, i should take it and get into a whole new experiencing the Lord's grace and mercy.

The Lord has been providing me much. Since the prayer for my grandmother, He has been close to me. My grandmother (father side) along with my granddad (mother side) must have been praying alot for us. See.... a laptop tt i beg my parents for long, suddenly they willing to buy for me, summore good one and expensive one. then peaceful home, then kicked out the theif staying in our hse. then good results for chinese, give me a good and miracle result, distinction for oral and B3 overall. and now, this. my results were like gone case. and then i got both canning and curtin offer. miracle do happen.

Somehow, i feel the happiness doesn't long. I am really afraid that when time comes for me o leave, i am afraid that i will turn back and and regret leaving them there. i will cry till my tap never works. lol.

thats why i am afraid to even think about what will happen then. i just want to see them happily see me leave. then like that i can also smile and leave. lol.